My nerves tremble with fear..... The fear of losing her ——--MY RUBY!!!!!!

How can I be so blind, not understanding my heart until now.

I am completely overwhelmed with both love and------- FEAR.... fear of losing her.

I can't lose her. I won't lose her.

I can't live a life filled with regret; I know I will, if I don't tell her how I feel.

" Jab tak hum apne sapno ko nahi jeet lete, tab tak hume koi haq nahi hai, tumhe apne dil ka raaz batane ka. First, I will achieve my dream, then I will confess my feelings. " I vow, steeling myself with determination.

[ NOT UNTIL I CONQUER MY DREAMS, I HAVE NO RIGHT TO SHARE MY FEELINGS OF HEART TO YOU ]

Even though I say it with determination, deep down I know it will be incredibly difficult to achieve my dreams and to confront both her and the society......especially when time is running out, and it's LOVE because it's 1899........

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"Why do you call me Ruby?" She questions, her eyes curious.

A small smile comes to my lips hearing her question, I gently strokes her palm and answers "Because of your ruby bracelet… Since I didn’t knew your name before, I named you RUBY."

She blushes, mumbling "But I'm not the only one who has a ruby bracelet. So will you call everyone your ruby?"

A few chuckles escalate from my lips, while raising my hands defensively. "I wouldn't dare!" Then I ask, "Why do you call me Moon?".

She glances at me and softly confesses " Because you’re the light that guides me in my darkness."

My heart swells with love at her affectionate words. She continues, glancing down at her bracelet "But there are countless admirers of the moon…. So why would he look only at me, out of thousands of rubies ?"

I nuzzle my forehead in her lap, meeting her gaze and whisper with admiration " Maybe there are. But.... how shall I tell them that you are the only Ruby the Moon admires "

“ THE MOON MAY HIDE BEHIND CLOUDS , BUT IT WILL NEVER FORGET HIS RUBY'S GLOW ” I whisper, kissing her forehead.